now what, nicole?

growing up.

2010-08-10T16:55:00.000-07:00

I have never ever been one to worry about money.

My parents are divorced and both remarried, and growing up I was extremely lucky in this sense. When I was about to turn 16 I was sat down and told I would be getting a car, my insurance would be paid for, as well as cell phone, and lastly all my essentials were taken care of. BUT if I wanted the nice clothes, to go out with friends, and to be senseless with the gas I used I would need a job. The next day I went out applying and got my first job 2 months before I turned 16. Since that day I have never been without a job except for my first month of college.

Even then my college was paid for, my rent was and my bills, but if I wanted extra money a job it was. I am in NO WAY spoiled, my parents have been lucky enough to provide these things and I feel blessed EVERYDAY.

On the other side of all this was graduating in May. I could have moved to California, worked for my dad's company and been fine with that but I had gone to school for 4 years in something I loved and would not be using my education at all. That and being with out a big girl job I have decided on graduate school.

I put in notice at my student job at the VA (which I am blessed beyond words to have) and will be living off of the money I am getting paid to be a graduate teacher at the place I am going to grad school at. This summer has been the first on my own, without any money from dad every month, and all the necessities paid for and I have never been more proud of myself. The cut in my budget was atough one to swallow and I will be doing it again. I am living at home and still figuring out where I will be in order to move out and rent, but for now I feel leaps and bounds ahead of where I was just a meere few months ago.

I have realized how lucky I am to have gotten this opportunity to teach as that is what my passion is. To get my Dr.'s and teach. I may not be in California but I am happy and that is all that matters.

Sorry about the rant but I am slowly learning and growing, and at 22 it is time to start realizing what I have.

I'll be posting soon shopping finds and a few recent outfits.
:) xo

22, oh what a difference a year makes.

2010-08-08T17:29:00.000-07:00

it really is crazy how the past year has flown by and how much has changed. from graduating, moving back home after 4 years on my own, deciding on grad school, and being completely cut off, i have never felt more alive.

on my 21st.
at 1 am after celebrating my 21st, we headed up to chicago for lolla. so amazing.
some last semester tailgating. check out that hair, not my best picture ha!
cancun for spring break with 2 of the most amazing boys i know.

new orleans!
stuck at home for 2 days while middle tennessee was caught all up in flooding.
bonnarroooo!
and my 2 big new tattoos.
favorite x zil.

all in all it has been an amazing year. i am ready to start teaching and get grad school underway all while finding myself some more. im headed to california friday to see my dad and family. its always good to get back to where you come from. beach house for a week? in n out, bjs, nordys, etc. im in.

so heres to another year, trying to keep up with the blog, and to what 22 can bring. hope everyone had an ammmmazzzzzing weekend.

and its august?

2010-08-02T17:02:00.000-07:00

bday in 5 days! california in 12! grad school begins and teaching as a ga, 30!

i got this guest book for 2.99 at tj maxx, i fell in love. i hope i find a boyfriend and ever get married haha, such a loser.

went downtown last weekend and went to an amazing sushi

called rusans, didnt get pictures of the rolls, but hellloooo edemame.

i finsihed my vintage suite case table and its on the end of my bed, turned out so well.

there is a ross super close to my moms and i found this for 9 dollars. at first it felt awkward, but i dig it when its 95 plus humidity here in middle tennessee. fallll, where are you???

in franklin i saw this "cats not kids" bumper sticker, amazing. end of story, even though i dont like cat and i do want kids, its funny.

all in all life is so good. im working ready to start teaching and school. ive been thrifting a ton and will have to eventually do a post on that. shark week!! what whatttt.

alabama, arkansas, i sure love my ma and pa

2010-07-22T16:37:00.000-07:00

A fun little survey I found on kaelah's blog (which i love, and shes practically my neighbor here in middle tn). It seems to ring real true.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Today I pre-ordered Mike Posner's album. He is seriously talented, I listen to everything from Edward Sharpe to Kid Cudi. Never know who ill be into, but he is seriously talented. Today I found a website that has instructions to make a luggage table. i am going to do that this weekend, ill post pics :) tomorrow i have to drive an hour and 45 minutes to my grad school that i am starting at and teaching at as a grad teaching assistant, and getting more info abotu my class. not excited about the drive, excited for more info about the class.

this weekend its going to be hot, hot, hot here, so im looking forward to my 2 days off with painting, crafting, thrifting, pool and maybe a downtown nashville night.

a whole summer

2010-07-19T20:29:00.001-07:00

as much as i loveeee reading blogs, i am awful at keeping one. but im giving it a second go.

i just recently decided i am going straight into grad school. i got an assistantship that will pay for my entire tuition, plus some and i get to teach a class. im mortified but so excited. besides that summer has been lots of working and some play.

here some BB photos since my canon doesnt want to load any on my mac??

a new tattoo looking like this from,
this.
a road trip to texas (with a flat tire, speeding ticket, and longgg drive, but so worth it) to visit cousins, family, and the amazing city of fort worth.

meeting mike posner (whom i loveeee, swoon) at bonnaroo.

as much of this that i could.

i have thrifted my face off, taken lots of photos, painted and sewed, and lots of things.

im hoping to keep up this time.

xxo

painting, im in love...

2010-06-02T17:32:00.000-07:00

but waiting for drying...

outfit and my day

2010-06-02T17:04:00.000-07:00

today was just another 8.5 hour work day. so dreadful. since graduating i still work in my college town, but i have since moved back home after 4 years so the drive is just, blahhh. tomorrow i have an interview for a graduate assistantship at the university i would like to go to grad school at. as well as a meeting with the head of graduate comm about me coming.

i got an amazin canon rebel for graduation, but macalicious is not letting me load photos? so i used ol photobooth, so crappy.

tank- ross 7.99 blazer- thrifted, goodwill 3.29 jeans- marshalls, american eagle 12.99

unseen- flats, target (yellow), sale 5

im off for p90 and some bonnaroo preperation shopping. maybe some paiting.

xo.

now what, means?

2010-06-01T16:52:00.000-07:00

as a recent college graduated, i feel like everyone i run into says, "so...now what".

i mean really though?
and everytime i babble some answer, which never makes sense and could make that personb question if i actually graduated. from grad school to trying to find a REAL job, i want to remember this journey, as everyday i question my decisions.

about me, i enjoy going out (hey! im young.). i have recently gotten into painting, thrifting, serwing, and photography. obviously im lacking direction. i never use correct puntuation or writing skills, unless it is an email for future jobs or schools and i am lacking organization skills lately. i hope this all starts to make sense soon.

xo.